It feels weird not really liking anyone in particular, especially on Valentine's Day. It's not like I would have done anything due to my past experiences, but it is just a foreign feeling not having someone on my mind that way. I kind of wish I could start liking someone that way. I mean, I do have crushes, but nothing at a significant level yet. Maybe I will realize how much I actually like a girl in my life or someone new will come into my world. That warm feeling of seeing someone I like; the pounding of my heart in my chest; the complete break down of my ability to speak to her... I kind of miss all of that. Just random thoughts about my non-existent love life. Ha ha.

I hate it when someone compares their life to yours, almost like belittling what you are going through.

"I have my own issues too, but I suck it up and move forward." Well good for you! Do you want a prize? Not everyone can just pick themselves up and set aside their emotional baggage so easily. While you may be able to endure the problems that come your way, another person may fall apart, so don't make it seem like "if I can do it, so should you". You make that person seem weak, and how does that help them? You are just causing them to feel like shit. Stress and life complications affect people differently. You might be able to brush off a crisis, but someone else can be devastated by it. Being able to place yourself in another person's shoes is difficult when you are biased by your own experiences. Sigh... Just a random rant...

I just want to break down and just cry over the struggle that I have with the negativity building up inside of me. I just want to release all of my frustrations and lessen the tension inside. I can feel it getting ready to burst as I push it down in an effort to keep it contained. I don't know if I can keep pretending everything is OK when I am around others, something I must do tomorrow... I should be able to fake my way tough another day, but for how much longer can I keep it up? *Sigh*